yea.u're right

evryone seems busy,
even I
hmm..i guess
most of the people havent realize that
in their lives,
they juz cant stop mumbling bout wat they dont have
rather than wat they miss out
the little matter that actually matters a lot
they missed it out in the midst of mumbling wat they don have
even i, cant deny it
im feeling quiet during this xmas
kinda feeling of not doing anythg,
juz being quiet or rest i guess
don have the appetite to eat anythg,
mayb i juz don wanna spend money,
and also keep myself right in diet.

u said that,right now
we have to sacrifice our time in order for 10 years ahead ,
we can set aside n relax.
mayb i juz need some rest now.

new start of my lifestyle again..

found my target,i guess..=)
the goal for myself to achieve,
i wanna look exactly like previous,
my fav pic in fb
im bout to achieve it
all i need is to sleep early evrynight
not worrying of anythg
n eat the right thing always=)
i love myself=)
i can do it
right from now^^

我领悟了。

做人的确是不能时时刻刻去顾全面
每个人的观点都不同，
不由得自己去顾完大家的感受
这家。。
已经不是一个温暖的家了
或许它一直以来都不是

这几天，
因为她们的生日
让我彻底不想回这家了，
我不是不高兴，
而是领悟了一些东西。
她做那么多，
无非是为了自己。
在她眼里，
这大女儿，
是那么的不值得的。。
不知要怎么说，
就是每次回到家，
我都不被珍惜，
虽然我不稀罕这东西。
不过，
想对她说一句，
‘你有这一天，你应该好好反省一下。不是所有人都能任你摆布。’

不过我超感谢她的，
她让我领悟到，
之前我在这间家所留过的眼泪，
都是不值得的。
以后我也不会了。
对，他在我生命里的出现的确是给了我很大的影响。
不过他值得我这一些改变。
他值得。

昨天，
我买了蛋糕给你当生日礼物，
你回了我一句
‘你买给我做么？你自己吃啦，这些东西需要你买给我吗？’
我听了，没感觉。
因为心里已经有了这打算，
就是把蛋糕吃了·，哈哈。
是你说的。
我记得这件事。
我也知道你一定会给我这样的脸色。
所以我不会去哄你的，
你要么就学会好好对待身边的人，
哈哈，我那时还在想，
如果昨晚是最后一晚我们交谈，
你会有多大的遗憾啊！
那时你的一生中都会忘不了这件鸡毛蒜皮的事。
也感谢你，
让我能够借此机会磨练自己的能力，
学会不依赖你，
学会依靠自己，
谢谢你，
让我更学会独立=）

you've got no idea~~~

好想你。。 你真是的， 不带电话出门都可以的。。 在想着你说的话， 在想着要怎么让每一天能为你做些让你流连的事 让你可以感受到我对你的关心 让你对我加分 明天打算了要买给你一块你最喜欢吃的蛋糕 就这么一次， 可能我会忍不住口和你一起吃了=） 其实想想， 我也真的没做过什么让你惊喜的事， 谢谢你又提醒我了， 谢谢你因为是你把我带到来这里 让我一直以智慧充实自己， 让自己变得更好=） 因为你昨天的那番话， 让我学会了几件事。 一来，就是要做一件事，就要把握好时机，一旦错过了，很可能已挽不回了。 这是个非常重要的提点。是我从你的那番话领悟出来的。 二来，你提醒了我，‘要把生活的每一天当作生命的最后一天。’ 那时，我就想到，如果在我没珍惜你的那一刻或那瞬间， 下一秒，我没办法看到你呢？ 那会成为我终生地遗憾。 我没办法想象失去你了，我的人生会怎么样。 所以，从现在开始，我要花更多心思去为你， 这并不是一件很难的事，因为是处于心甘情愿的。 嗯。。。。 你果然是去吃了那块蛋糕。。。 我又错过了。。。。 还是。。。 明天我弄早餐给你吃？ 有什么健康早餐可以弄呢？ 还是我去买什么给你吃？ 好好玩哦。。。 我变得好贴心了。。。xd 你果然是很喜欢吃cheese哦。。。 连我都没办法阻止你~~ 要怎么让你吃的健康呢。。。 有点头痛这件事啊。。 你怎么了。。。 最近真的就已经忘记了你之前所对自己健康做过的承诺。。 嗯。。。。。。 虽然这还蛮‘有挑战’的， 不过我会尽心尽力地去为你， 最希望能让你开心和健康。。 爱你哦~~~~

hrm hrm..

ate some 'rubbish' today>.< not supposed to>.<
but its ok..
tomoro will be having good food for the rest of the day except when i go back home
will try not to eat rubbish eat rubbish at home then
hmm....
should be doing assign now=)
good luck to me=)
try to finish it a.s.a.p=)
^^

1st time posting blog at melacca=)

today is once again a day of resting here aftr for so long
having fun teaching here nowadays
found a new meaning in life
the motivation to improve myself to b a better person
yup..found this strength in the book i read n the seminars i went
plus the tv series that i watched..
seriously reminded me of how much time i wasted last time watching unmeaningful movies
and hanging around with friends which would not turn out to be good ones
juz a waste of time
lucky to be here,honestly
itz the only decision that i never regret for the entire life!
im lucky to pay my college fee myself
hmm...sometimes kinda...
unexplainable...
wat i hope for them is that they really learn sth from wat they're facing now
i cant help much, but juz trying not to think of depending of them
happy that at least im capable of taking care of own expenses

ytd,
one of the parent came up n complained bout the students' hmwk
glad that i could handle it
itz really a lesson for me,
must be careful while guiding the students with their hmwk
alrite..
im not a superb,
i'll juz do my best in my work

i felt proud of myself that
ytd i could take the complaint as a learning process in my life
refreshing back to the previous me,
honestly i felt i have no values for the guys i loved,
no wonder they abandoned me.
now,
i would always think of improving myself.
i wouldnt be crying when i have problems,
thanks to the students' uncle,
he let me learnt sth.
or else i would not know what's my problem.
love my job=)
thanks to the one who brought me here
n to the One who blessed us to come here safely evrytime=)

typing chinese at last. (but....not for long xd)

昨天去听了info day学了不少东西、让自己更肯定该做的东西是什么了
大概是因为开始了解自己了吧=）
最近开始找到那个方向感
心情比较容易控制了
不再想太多
我好在找回自己的自信心
昨天学到一个很有意思的东西，
主讲人说：“ 女人要有3大独立：经济独立，思想独立 还有 感情独立”
让我更想赚多点钱，可以吃更多营养，更健康，摆脱皮肤敏感问题=）
虽然要一步一步来，但我会好好加油的=）
最近学生一直在fb加我，让我觉得很想删掉它了。。
kind of having no privacy..
不过偶尔还是有这个小毛病，就是要看回去>.<
anyway...
i feel that typing in mandarin is a bit troubling,
its better back to english =D
knowing that nobody will view this,
juz typing for fun a to wait for the seminar a while more
hoping to learn new thing today
love seminar
better go n buy some fruits to eat later=)
he said i gotta speak more mandarin,
to improve my language n mentality
yup,that's true,
i desire fast thinking=)
thanks for letting me know wat's my problem,
to me,
this...is a step of learning in my life=)

great day=)

nowadays,
im getting more n more passion towards having a good health
almost evrythg i ate today didnt cause my body having burden^^
love eating healthy lots...!
hmm...guess the reason why im passionate bout it
is that i knw if i eat without bothering my health
the poisons will cause me suffering more
as it will stay inside my body n cause allergies
so unworth!!!!
glad that my mind is clear now..
i find it happy n satisfied eating good food=)
as long as i knw wat im doing is not hurting myself,
itz alwiz the best move!
which is saying no to 'rubbish yums'

learnt sth today..
hmm...not to rely on him while working>.< n in normal life>.<
itz good to know wat my problem is as to improve myself in my performance
thx ya...
i'll do my best as to change those behaviour or mentality
that will influence my work=D
im doing the right thing!!!!

tot that this blog is closed..lol

actually it juz need me to verify this e-mail..
erm...not supposed to c that blog actually
juz saw a comment from someone on my latest published blog
kinda down a bit now,
mayb i feel a bit sorry for this present one=/
for..knowing things that i should not knw
mayb should delete this acc
as..things is already different from last time,
hmm..evrythg..
the memories isnt that important,
wats important is wat im having now
n juz lessons that had tought me last time..
thx ya..
i knw v cant alwiz ask for the better one=)
ur alwiz the best for me=)
actually...
it kinda suck typing blog...
it feels like nobody knws wat im thinking
n i no longer like being secretive n keeping all thgs in my heart
love u babe=)
i will do all i can to help u n love u evryday=)
i wont think of the previous memories so often,
coz i knw as long as ur with me,
n i have done wat i can do best for u,
its good enough^^
n i knw u love me much too=*
thx for being by my side evryday,
hugging me when im down,
supporting me all the time
n telling me that wat the fortune teller said was not going to happen
i trust u, n hope dat im the one u would want to rely on
love u=)

came-by-a-stop =)

for so long not blogging,
almost forgotten how to make a new post already..
itz late now n im suppose to sleep,
but juz tot of sth here..
juz went on fb n saw myself being in a group,
my primary sch group.
didnt knw dat any1 of them stil rmb me.
nowadays my mind juz tot of all the old times,
even the ppl dat has walked into my life.
but im glad wit wat i hav n the person wit me now.

time juz came by so fast n im gonna b 18 in 10 days time!
hmm...
actually there's nth reli dat excited,
but being reli independent,
im moving on now to b a bttr person,
stil learning as i alwiz do,
but working on chging myself to b recognized person in my career.
i love my work, evryone dat is wit me,
i seriously got the pic in my mind of wat they think,
itz alrite..
i juz gotta do my best on wat im doing n have my great achievements
hard work is a MUST..
there's no bitterness lines in it but im enjoying it,
learning how to handle thgs evryday.

glad dat nowadays i felt the thgs dat im doing being appreciated n realized,
by the one i love.
juz the word 'thx', i can b happy for so long.
thx for being there for me,
thx for guiding me so much in my life,
telling me the truth,
asking me not to avoid facing the fact.
thx to God becoz i met u =)