recent inner feelings=)

lots of things came into my mind recently,
yup...even my bf said that i just seldom sit down quietly,
found it pretty hard to behave how i should be,
but just couldn't find a way through it.

God is really great to me,
i always felt that im just being in a dream,
wondering what am i doing and what i want sometimes.
i thought, y couldn't i do more for people instead of asking from them.
im just so shit..
but He showed me what i want.
He showed me how to think.

我终于就找回之前一直在寻找的答案，
他说，经常只有他付出，我却很少主动为他付出。
有时我会觉得，一些事情真的不应该是这样的，
可是事实就已经摆在眼前。
应该，不应该，都得接受。
学会付出的确是难题，
但是神就是要我学会这样东西。

感谢周围发生的一切，
感谢我拥有的，
虽然很多事情都回不了头，
但是起码我不是藏在井底的青蛙，
更本不知道外面的世界是怎样，
连绕在自己外面的圈圈都不能踏出去。

我喜欢做好事，训练自己做未来做的事，加油！

我的人生旅程~

好享受每一天。。
进步的每一天，
每天都能做自己喜欢的事，
也可以说是喜欢做每天做的事。

运动~喝果汁=）
教书~~~~
加油！我的每天会更好！

my new life=)

days and days passed by~
and more and more things i learned=)
seriously..
sometimes when i think again bout the past,
imagine the moments being with them,
i missed them.
but i guess,
my life is getting better now.
although i lost many things,
but i have myself here.
i have my goals to achieve,
my life to spend,
my beloved one and my family here at this place.
learned that the power of making ourselves happy comes from ourselves.
because we live for ourselves.

i learned to hand wash my clothes everyday, shopping alone without expecting company.
i learn to appreciate myself, love myself more, i learn the way of relaxing,
i know how to keep my own fire rekindle and put off it anytime i want.
i learn to move myself better.
i learn to share with people without fussing so much bout what i lose
i prefer my life here much more~
so peaceful...freedom...relaxing...

i love to do more than others..
i love to give hopes to the children..
i love to satisfy myself by loving myself more everyday=)
buck up jas! 

carrying on..=)

a day of missing old times..started to think bout ppl that came across my life.
used to.. set people as past tense, due to certain reasons.
seriously, wasn't a person that can manage the center of things.
being too calculative between right and wrong.

some times  i wish to say ' im sorry' to those that i ignored.
maybe some of u have been a hurt to me.
glad that im who i am today.

everything that happens throughout life have brought me meanings in this life.
my religion, my allergy,all the things ups and downs..
and now,
melacca is my new home.

wanna have some time to spend with someone and tell him how i feel.
need some comfort...
some warm..
it's not easy to adapt to too big changes in life simultaneously..
some people that had 19 years relationship with me,
leaving a full stop to me,
with unrelevant reasons.
seriously, r u out of ur mind?
actually, at different standpoint,
itz hard to also accept people like me..
haha..im not an easy person to handle.

dont know whether i forgive them,
but what i know is,
i always don hope things to be like this.
it doesn't have to be like this, actually.
no one's right or wrong for all.

wish to have such a day to see all of u trully happy in life.
this is my best wishes to u.
drop some tears on that night,
was wondering,
if i had a child, and she would still blesses me in her heart
even though how i treat her always hurt her,
and she's still having the forgiving heart all the time,
it gonna be very touching..

i don expect anything much in return from all of u,
but still..im waiting with hopes for the recovery of this relationship,
and a real love and care..
don break my heart again..

...

im like a girl now, begging to be accepted..
do u really know me well as a family?
do u really know what i need?
there's a gurl crying deep inside,
im comforting her,
telling her not to expect so much, hoping so much to restore this relationship,
is this the end of story?