carrying on..=)

a day of missing old times..started to think bout ppl that came across my life.
used to.. set people as past tense, due to certain reasons.
seriously, wasn't a person that can manage the center of things.
being too calculative between right and wrong.

some times  i wish to say ' im sorry' to those that i ignored.
maybe some of u have been a hurt to me.
glad that im who i am today.

everything that happens throughout life have brought me meanings in this life.
my religion, my allergy,all the things ups and downs..
and now,
melacca is my new home.

wanna have some time to spend with someone and tell him how i feel.
need some comfort...
some warm..
it's not easy to adapt to too big changes in life simultaneously..
some people that had 19 years relationship with me,
leaving a full stop to me,
with unrelevant reasons.
seriously, r u out of ur mind?
actually, at different standpoint,
itz hard to also accept people like me..
haha..im not an easy person to handle.

dont know whether i forgive them,
but what i know is,
i always don hope things to be like this.
it doesn't have to be like this, actually.
no one's right or wrong for all.

wish to have such a day to see all of u trully happy in life.
this is my best wishes to u.
drop some tears on that night,
was wondering,
if i had a child, and she would still blesses me in her heart
even though how i treat her always hurt her,
and she's still having the forgiving heart all the time,
it gonna be very touching..

i don expect anything much in return from all of u,
but still..im waiting with hopes for the recovery of this relationship,
and a real love and care..
don break my heart again..