hmm..how should i react wit wat i've heard?

came to knw stg which i didnt knw for so long..
kinda shocked when i heard it
but dat was reli someone dat im vry concerned bout last yr.(k)
juz dunno y..
hmm..i hope im not hoping in it again..=)
felt that this person has been faired to me
when he realized dat im not the one,
he told me in a polite way
although i revealed this truth today the exact reason
but i reli appreciate him vry much for his concern for my feelings
thanks k.
although it didnt end up as i wanted at 1st,
but thanks dat u hid the truth from me,
i feel better to know it by myself than u letting me know=)

n today..
i found some good qualities in one of my fren,
we werent dat close but v alwiz recess together nowadays,
aftr sharing wit her n listening to her sharings,
i felt dat she's a caring person n a good fren.
actually i wonder, y didnt her close frens appreciate her?
feel so pity her for being abandoned by others.
hmm..but i feel happy dat can hav a fren like her,
hope she's alwiz cheerful=)
n wish to understand her more^^
friends r precious,
wish dat all of my close frenz n i can alwiz keep in touch
(even though aftr v graduated from secondary sch)=/

my eye has finally recovered a little..

hmm..these few days i didnt allow myself to cry..

but..stil at least a little..

sometimes i juz feel like showing to ppl dat i can go over this

it hurts though..=/

i don wan to make the lump more on my eye..

it doesnt make me feel comfortable..

dat is y i skipped sch today..

today..i cried a lot

1st is my driving..

i didnt drive as well as i expected

and my mom was juz correcting me but i wanted to give up out of my impatience..

i dunno how to reverse car according to the side mirrors..

datz scary..luckily itz at the basement there..

aftr i cried for dat i sudden;y tot of this person..

hmm..dunno y..

i felt dat i havent let go..

stil wanted to ask him dat question..

his class gonna start soon at dat time so yea...

didnt ask him n told him to text me when free..

i guess i don need to ask him now..=/

wanted to ask dat becoz i wanna give up on hoping in him..

anyway...juz over emo at dat time..

ACCEPT!!i alwiz tell myself like this..=/

i knw i can..surely i can!

i juz wanna b a tougher person n don give up in times of disappointment

hope this applies to him too..=)

omg...itz so embarassing..

grrr....
today i almost fell down again..
my leg hit a divider tiang outside the nova apartment guard house..
some guys saw me n frightened...
omg~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dunno should laugh or wat???
my leg is painful..
some skin peeled off here>.<
arhhh~~~~~~~~~
i was soooooooooooooooooooooo stupid..
didnt look at the road n walking while i was busying to eat..

advice to all: DONT EAT WHEN YOU WALK!!
plz...i beg y'all..
look at where ur walking..
nvr again will i walk n eat..T.T

moving on being a wise learner=)

as a learner in life i faced some trials....
sometimes lost smtg n it is hard to let go sometimes..
cried a lot for this..
sometimes tend to blame this n dat with wonderings and reasonings
somehow i knw dat..itz isnt ppl's fault or our fault,
neither the planners for our life..
there is alwiz a reason behind this..
sometimes in disappointments,
v alwiz react in a way dat v pity ourselves for wat v r facing, emo all the time, tend to alwiz think how bad is the world n itz ppl..
or even try to avoid it or force ourselves to b happy n still try to b TOUGH..
but there's a fact behind it..it doesnt work coz the thought is WRONG!

my wrong reactions to disappointment was alwiz...
avoid it,tell myself dat i can only cry for few dayz,
thought dat i can feel better by thinking bout other things..
but it has never been a CHANGE
the grief is still inside becoz i was not accepting it
another thing is..if i never face it, i can never forget it.

thought a lot nowadayz..n i've got a lot of answers
it all ended wit the same conclusion
juz FACE IT, ACCEPT IT n find the RELIEF!
im now a better person,
thinking like a grown up person
wat that has gone be by gone..
this is surely sth meaningful bcos v have learnt a great lesson=)
nowadayz i can tend to chat wit my frenz,
fooling around wit them happily juz like the jasmine in old dayz
dat doesnt mean i did not accept the fact dat i've lost smtg
but i have tend to appreciate wat i have n go for the goals for my future..
i can still move on!

i knw i should not hate myself out of disappointment,
it doesnt signifies dat im useless, hopeless, or im a nobody to others
i knw itz not the ending
itz juz a beginning of disciplining myself,
growing to b a more mature and right thinking person^^
life is precious n i m enjoying evry moment in wat i do now=)





this is wat i meant by my statement 'i love the way i looked'
because i don hate myself n i knw dat i have my good personalities..
best thing dat i ever learnt in life for 17 years living
i love my life now and alwayz!