sometimes lost smtg n it is hard to let go sometimes..
cried a lot for this..
sometimes tend to blame this n dat with wonderings and reasonings
somehow i knw dat..itz isnt ppl's fault or our fault,
neither the planners for our life..
there is alwiz a reason behind this..
sometimes in disappointments,
v alwiz react in a way dat v pity ourselves for wat v r facing, emo all the time, tend to alwiz think how bad is the world n itz ppl..
or even try to avoid it or force ourselves to b happy n still try to b TOUGH..
but there's a fact behind it..it doesnt work coz the thought is WRONG!
my wrong reactions to disappointment was alwiz...
avoid it,tell myself dat i can only cry for few dayz,
thought dat i can feel better by thinking bout other things..
but it has never been a CHANGE
the grief is still inside becoz i was not accepting it
another thing is..if i never face it, i can never forget it.
thought a lot nowadayz..n i've got a lot of answers
it all ended wit the same conclusion
juz FACE IT, ACCEPT IT n find the RELIEF!
im now a better person,
thinking like a grown up person
wat that has gone be by gone..
this is surely sth meaningful bcos v have learnt a great lesson=)
nowadayz i can tend to chat wit my frenz,
fooling around wit them happily juz like the jasmine in old dayz
dat doesnt mean i did not accept the fact dat i've lost smtg
but i have tend to appreciate wat i have n go for the goals for my future..
i can still move on!
i knw i should not hate myself out of disappointment,
it doesnt signifies dat im useless, hopeless, or im a nobody to others
i knw itz not the ending
itz juz a beginning of disciplining myself,
growing to b a more mature and right thinking person^^
life is precious n i m enjoying evry moment in wat i do now=)
this is wat i meant by my statement 'i love the way i looked'
because i don hate myself n i knw dat i have my good personalities..
best thing dat i ever learnt in life for 17 years living
i love my life now and alwayz!
I was so proud on what you've wrote. Babe, you finally find your own way. At least something that has been open up your heart to fight for those hurtful thingy... Seriously, im glad with that. But still, life werent as easy as you thought of. because pessimistic was definitely my character. I just cant stop myself of thinking positive like what you did (: and i miss you alot. hope we can meet up someday been chating more..
ReplyDeleteyup..surely v can meet up again..hmm..i knw its kinda hard for u to think like this..honestly tears will still come out from my eyes when i refresh back sometimes..but i knw one thing..is dat it's already the past.wat can i do? cry to get it back? evryone faces trials n makes mistakes, but most importantly is have u ever wonder of y things alwiz ends up the same?therez one day i suddenly tot of this, n i knw dat my perspective was wrong, alwiz put hope on wrong things..dat is y it alwiz ends up the same..hey..if ur crying becoz u think dat ur afraid dat some relationship will end, juz ask urself, y r u worrying? r u doing smtg wrong? if u knw ur doing it, correct urself n if it does makes u feel guilty of anythg juz becoz of dat, i guess u have to let go..u may not understand wat im saying but itz true..take care ceci..i hope ur having the right perspective..=)
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