let by gone be by gone=)

i've done my best...
in evrythg..
for the past
now itz time for myself to b happy..
of course,doing the right thing=)
i knw whom i trust is trustable...
so yea..for the past...
i'll juz treat all of them my frenz still=)

n yea............
studies!!
getting more nervous..
need more preparation!!
today start doing more on bio subj 1st..
reli don get those systems n functions..
but i knw i can do it..

hope wont juz dream on but put into action..=)
gambateh bai fan!!
take care of urself n recover as soon as possible ya?=)

mmmmmmm.....gotta push ady....=(

im nervous...
i seriously am...
i gotta catch up those dat i don get n knw the technics to answer..
hmm...
today kinda happy at sch..
i found my mood to study bio dy..
today i wanna do my best in studies..
wish to score well in trial n spm=)
thx for all dat studie n revise wit me,
v improve together whenever v solve the ques together=)
love y'all!

i learnt a lot nowadays..:)

jun jie called me n v had some chating on sat n mon

he told me many thgs..

although aftr hearing those..

i find it hard to trust ppl around me..

he said..guys who made promise r juz say for fun only..

they can make promise, evryone can, but who can reli do it?

hmm..i knw itz true..

but i trusted...him..

to me, he reli tried his best to fulfill wat he promised me.

although yes,i cried a lot for the promise he didnt fulfill..

but i stil think dat wat he said, he reli meant it..

guess he's the last one dat i will trust the promises..=)

i still trust u,
although ur not sharing evrythg wit me like previously anymore
i trust u as a fren,hope u reli treat me the same..
im willing to share wit u bout the joy i experience,
i don expect frm u anythg,
i wish dat u will have the right perspective in life only..
dat is all i wan from u..

jun jie told me dat the world is a realistic community..

he said guys sometimes love a person wit wrong motives..

those dat i reli don like to hear..

since then..

my mood wasnt reli good for 2 days ady..


talking bout sharing my joyfulness..

i wondered today..

did i couple wit somebody to help them or out of my love?

i knw im not superior..

cant hlp ppl dat easily..

especially bout those dat i share..

aftr this relationship ends,

i knew i cried becoz i have to juz wish him n let go..

evrytime in my heart i tell myself dat i wish him all the best..

i worried bout his future sometimes even as while i was wit him..

im afraid if he will b influenced by other bad girls in future..

i dunno..

i feel dat the reason dat i be wit him is dat i don wan him to b influenced...?

hmm..anyway..he cant c my heart now..

not expecting him to come bck,

juz wish dat he is willing to share wit me anythg n listen to my sharing

mayb i expressed my words wrongly b4 this..

saying dat im afraid of disappointments..

mayb dat scared him..

i dunno?juz don b cold to me k?
as a fren,i juz wish to share wit u..=)

i realized this ytday,

when i shared wit him in my text,

he didnt reply...

i felt sad..

but i shared the same text wit jun jie,

he replied me n feel happy dat i share wit him,

i felt so happy aftr seeing the text..

i guess,mayb i juz wanna share wit ppl the joy dat i have..

thx to those who appreciate my sharing:)

this morning~~~

went to MP sports centre ply badm..

xia shui...lol..

i think those who ply beside will have to b afraid of being smashed juz bcoz of my hit..

lol...

badm plying skills worse than usual..

mayb nowadayz drink cold drinks sometimes+ didnt exer much + didnt eat mch as well

whther it affects anot..

stil..i gotta improve skills in badm..

>.<

n studies......

ltr gotta drive to tuition for a.math replacement class..

hmm...kinda my fav subj nowadays=)

another 3 months time.....

meeda push!!!

n say...I CAN I CAN!

wish dat nowadays don get tired too easily..

don wan my sleeping time affect studies...=(

much to say=)

Lately~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i felt so mch bttr aftr sharing wit mom,
kinda many days didnt post here..=)
mom said can hang out wit my frenz as long as she knws who i hang out wit.
finally no more guilt in my heart..
i love like this, don like doing things behind anybody..
especially against parents..=(
now finally can b a good girl..
doing wat i like to do in a way dat makes me feel entirely happy^^
i love my family n frenz n God!

yesterday~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

say bye bye to HBO, MTV hits, CNN, nickelodeon, disney channel...
those dat i watched!!=(
astro cut off since 19th August 2010!!
my favourite movies.....................
argh~~~~~~~~~~~~
no more........

recently have not been taking photos until this day!!
got new pics in phone waiting to upload..
hehe^^
got 8 i think..
but will pick 6 or 5..
hope got good comments..^^

today~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

itz the 1st time i drived home so early!
usually wait for cars to clear out..
surprisingly vry few of cars..
aftr seeing many cars in front,
i straight U-turn my car to d other opposing lane..
quite gan jiong but learnt experience!
im daring....hahahah!!
siao siao...lol..
but....my baby got a little hurt!!!..
itz when i reach below nova there turning right too fast
the tyre hitted the divider a bit...
sam tong lor...my baby....
=(
luckily my baby is alrite...
today i drove quite shaky,
i mean in terms of shifting gear,
the gear got a bit stucked..
hope itz alrite ltr when i drive to tuition...=)


hmm..i kinda miss hanging out for a movie nowadays...
=(
i reli miss the times eating popcorns,drinking soft drink n watching movies in cinemas....
i wanna watch the new movie..
soon tesco cinema will b opening..
bro n i wanna watch,
hope can watch dat movie by shia la beouf..
duno wat it calls but i knw got this handsome,it muz b a nice movie...
like shia la beouf!!!=)
awaiting for dat movie~~~~~

mmmmmHmmmmm...im happy=)

i tot of many thgs today..(at 1st la)
=)
i almost cried becoz i felt reli reli vry stressed out..
the most dat i concern is driving..
my driving was dangerous yest..
luckily my bro n i were saved=)
thank God again!!

hmm...juz before writing this blog..
i tot of one thg dat i should b happy of,
my mom promised me dat aftr spm,
she'll allow me to do bracers!
i've been waiting for it for so long!!!
although it's not dat nice for few years,
n i would like to bear wit it..
hmm..paiseh...share here..
hehe..

today i drove safely..
kinda helped me felt happier aftr ytday's incident
at least it comforts me^^
i hope i wont make big mistake again like dat..
thank God still!!!!
i said im ALIVE!!!!!!!!
or else..choi!

i found my mistake n luckily i can learn from it b4 anythg bad happens to me n family,
i muz b a good driver to ensure my family is safe wit me!
+ those who may need me to fetch nex time...
i said MAY ya...
i cant take the responsibility of ur lives!
plz don gimme resposiblility to fetch y'all go anywhere..
i cant take it..
im juz a new driver..

feel so happy^^
refreshing on how i start learning to drive..
how my mom n bro trained me aftr got my P...
until today!!
i can drive myself to tuition n sch dy!!
although i cant simply go other place,
but im so lucky^^
hmmm....
i think im d only student in this sch to drive manual car as a girl..
hehe.....
but stil,
all pls pray for me,
dat evry journey i go on the road will b safe^^
i pray for you all too..=)
especially those dat i concern mch..

to all drivers~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
drive safely ya...

up..down...up..down...yesterday..(my mood)

cried a bit yest..
itz when i shared wit 2 guys bout my feelings,
when some particular words irritated me,
tears juz came down like dat..
but it lasted for a while only becos i don wanna cry anymore..
n i knw im fine..
hmm..i felt..actually crying once in a whike to let go,
the feeling is quite comfortable..
especially when i released how i felt,
whether by complaining not fair,or telling myself dat itz for our good=)

yest chated wit jun jie,
i wondered still..
can i trust his words?
but i knw even if he's telling frm true heart..
i wont accept him still for now,
itz bttr to remain frenz..
evrythg comes more natural..
foreout, i don reli dare to put myself into all these ady..(for now)


nowadays start to drive car to sch starting on last thur onwards..=)
quite happy..
hehe...don needa walk home again..woohoo...
love ma babe...
nowadays...my car has been my 'baby'..
feel itz cute,wanna take gud care of my car..
n washing car has become my hobby^^
love it so mch..
hmm...should call it a 'she'^^
im juz crazy..
emm...
i hope this mentality is normal=/
coz....
i think i love my car as though itz a nissan fairlady!
although itz not a big car,
but im privileged enuf to have a car..
reli appreciate it..
anyway itz gonna stick to me for 7 years at least..
i will take care of it vry well..^^
hope nobody's stupid mistake n less cautious hurts 'her' again>.<


hmm...talking bout car..sad thg to say...
didnt even realise dat my car got a little part concaved dy...
dunno who did this to my car..
but i knw it muz b at desaparkcity..!
stupid fella...
open door don open gently..
hit my car n happened like dat..
grrr...
i reli hate it...
itz not dat i didnt drive well,
but the stupid fella did this to my car..
but of coz...
itz bttr for others' doing mistake than i doing mistake..
a good reason to thank God..^^

my mood is kinda down now..

aftr he replied me in his status at fb,
i felt dat im like disturbing him..
i dunno..
i juz feel down aftr reading it..
itz not his fault..
mayb he's juz busy..
but...
i reli feel like crying..
i don think i should text him anymore until he text me himself..
i should not disturb his life..
actually..this feeling is reli hard to let go..
used to love him so mch..
but..it ended..
i reli gotta accept dat..
mayb i wont view his fb anymore..
mayb i juz got to forget how he looks,how he speaks,how he jokes wit me..
it reli hurts...
i loved u,mr A..
but i cant love u anymore..
guess this is the 1st time i confess this in my blog..
i knw i sounds emo..
used to keep this in my heart n only share to my close ones..
n..
this may b the one n only blog i confess..

ytday i tot of asking u out..
mayb let u b the 1st one i fetched except family..
but i didnt..
at the end..i fetched another fren..
mr.k..
but...lets not talk bout mr.k..
i drove vry nervously ytday..n dangerous..
i dunno wat my mind was thinking..
luckily he thought me..
n today..
my mom scolded me coz i was blur while driving..
didnt stop at the junction..
didnt shift gear properly..
didnt use the right gear..

alrite..
im not gonna say how bad it is..
i wan my confidence back..
i will not cry for it anymore..
ltr gonna drive to tuition..
gotta ensure good driving though..
so dat's all..
although i guess no one will view my blog so often..
but i felt bttr now sharing here..

ur surely happy there,aren't u?=)
wishing u all the best in life ya..
God bless u^^